i am so increadibly bored right now and stressed because of my anatomy class. the more i try to prepare for this test the more i feel like im gonna blow up my head! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!  i dont think im gonna do well on this test, but next time i will. its all about memorizing things and too many things to memorize, but i gotta do it. there is no stopping untill i pass. anyways my relationship is great. minor things here and there but we sit and talk about it after. i learned alot in only 7 months with danny. he's great although he loves to be a pain in my ass. i still love him. If there wasnt anything i wouldnt like about him then there wouldnt be anything i would love about him. the way i see it is you either love it or leave it and i love it lol... he's the only guy that i've dated and shows me how much he cares. besides the whole "oh i love you" and "baby ill do anything for you". we actualy communicate. sounds corny i know but when ever there is something wrong or something happens,which is rare, we actually talk about and figure out a way to deal with it and get over it. now you tell me how many men or women in you life you have met that do that. no seriously how many let me know. ugh 50 min till class starts and im not in the mood to get up. im so sleepy and i start my mini term today. damn class start at 1 and ends at 4 aaaahhhh. atleast its only a month and not everyday. i think i can deal with it. i gained some weight. at one point i was 90bls and now im 96 and 1/2 bls yaaaaay.so i have 9 and 1/2 to go lol... and then i can turn that into tone muscle yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.  well im off to kill some time somewhere else.

ta ta for now (ttfn)

Ok so for those of you curious to how we met and how it all started here it goes...

we knew each other from highschool.. It was nothing more than just hello and goobye..... Later on in college we ran into eachother a few times.. talked a little, exchanged numbers, and even  found each other on myspace...

no biggie right?! Well we spoke a few times after that and the first time we went out was to dinner at Applebee's... Thats when we realy got to know eachother and had a good time. Didnt think much of it.. Yea i liked him but I was just glade i made a new friend.. plus i didnt want anything more at the time.. anyways...

time went on.. two three weeks of not hearing from each other and then one day i decide to call... we talked yet again.. same night he asked me to go t the moveis with him on a friday, so i said sure... We went to gameworks to eat and then a movie that friday.. next thing you know we're in the back making out! ha ha ha... nothing wrong with kissing on the first date...

After that i wasnt to sure what was goin on. if we were together or just dating so i just went with the flow instead of assuming things... well its been a month and we are together... now you know how it all happend....

what is so funny is that we are alike yet complete opposites at the same time... he likes thick girls and im used to what he calls pretty boys... Im not thick and he's .. well... ghetto lol....... no not the grimmy ghetto all rude and loud and pants below the ass like its about to fall off... "thank god" lol... still i like what is going on so far.. lets see what might happen...

Mrs.chocoholic out!

 It has been a great 5 months with my boyfriend danny... yup its been 5 months and still going strong. he got the job he wanted finally and school is almost over in a few hours lol... but thats not why im writing now. i just found one of my two brothers from new york. i have never meet them in my life b/c we're just half brothers and all i knew was that they lived in new york. with little info that i recieved i looked everywhere i could online. funny thing is i found him on myspace! yea myspace! lol.. personaly its god's xmas gift to us.. i have never felt so excited in my life about a family member. i thought i was gonna give up and i wanted to. but one last try and there he was... he'll be coming down next month to meet the other side of the fam. aaaaaahhhh i cant wait! yaaaaaaaay i have older brothers lol....

i call this a happy ending and a new beginning!

I havent written in forever! lol..
well I broke my promise of being single for a year... dont ask it just happend..
The guys name is Danny and we knew eachother from highschool..
well anyway its been a month and so far so good...
I work more now than ever.. my cool ass. manager is gone and now we have some idiot there.. I have to watch my back from time to time because I know he steals my sales and everyone elses... but w/e ... i dont care anymore..
hm.. what else is new?... well i got a new cell, and school is about to start again..
thats pretty much it... im just worried about number one! lol.....
good night everyone.
jen jen

im so tired today but i feel great..
im no longer sick and i can sing again! yaaaaaaaaay lmao..
im such a dork! anyway life is good... haters are hating and waisting their time thinking about me lol, im enjoying the single life, i got an ok job with a cool ass assistant manager, and nothing feels better than to spoil myself with what i want....
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..........

rosemary get a life.....
i got my head on strieght, i know what i want, and i got my own fuckin image... atleast im not the one on hyro's dick or what ever the fuck you man's name is...
im not the one tellin poeple you just met about that UTI!!!!go fucking pee before you get it!!!... as a mater of fact i have done nothing to you in order for you to start shit with me...
so do yourself a favor and get yourself a shrink... because it seems to me the one with issues here is you.....have a nice fucking day!!!!!!

out of  a break up i found a new friend. beautiful in her way with confidence and the power to do anything....
ironic how it happend and how well we get along...
no reason to hate or look at one another as anything less.
because of her i have grown out of alot of heart breaks and to never forget my past. i look foward and know that i can do more than the expected. i only hope for  a friendship to become stronger and closer. thanks to you briahna i learned that life is beautiful. thank you for being who you are and for being a new found friend. i truely admire you and now i know what its like to look up to someone when others used to look upon me. if you ever need a sholder to lean on or just a smile on your face im right here..
sincerly
jenny

something must be absolutley wrong with my head...
i need to like examin it and do something i dont know..
well here is the story... I went out with someone about a year ago.
we lasted a month and only because it was my fault.. yes yes i did it. i cheated and im not proud of it iether.. well i confesed what happend and ended it. suprisingly enough he ended up being my best guy friend. he didnt hate me like his friends did and he forgave me.. so we became friends. i honestly though he got over me.. come one now its been almost a year already.. ugh well
i end up finding out he's still inlove with me...i care so much about him and im so afraid idf i do go back out with him that ill hurt him again...
not just that im not inlove with him.. yea i love the guy but not like that... more like a brother...
what is so funny is that he is the definition of a nice guy. i know him inside and out ugh..
see what i mean.. something is so wrong with my head...
well what's a girl to do?
hm... i guess only time will tell.

well saterday night i had mad fun with
some friendsat a strip club.. a guys strip club..
not one was flaby sagy lazy or missing any teeth ha ha ha
goergouse men striping for a womans pleasure.. ladies and gentlemen i call that a tease
sad part i went home to no one so i got none...
on the other hand who would of though that one of them would hit on me.. hm....
i know i cant be dreaming.... yea baby my little ass got me a hott striper lookin!!
now i know i can get anyone i want... just a matter of confidence...
happy flippin birthday briahna...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I realize that im not ready....
I like not having any strings attached. No heart break, no drama..
well at least in that department lmao... I may miss having someone there
to hold and to share my life with every now and again but i dont need someone right now
and i can accept it...
I'm happy with the fact that i can still kiss and still hold hands and not have to be involved in a relationship... hey thats what dates are for..
im having fun exploring and meeting new poeple and seeing what is out there for me..
its been 5 months that i have been single... i think i should keep it going for a while longer...
if love finds me then it finds me and i will embrace it with arms wide open...
So for now.. sorry fellas we can date but no attachments please...
i have alot to live for and its not just relationships..
its my music when i dance poeple i care for and anything and everything i enjoy...
life is grand and its too short so enjoy it the best way you know how my friends...
stop holding grudges...." just look foward and never forgetting you past"( briahna gave me that advice)

p.s. Briahana and Jenifer we may not be the closest of friends but i do love you both and i do care and i thank you for being the support i never thought i would have.. just the smallest things have helped me this far.. now lets see how far i can take it....
always and forever
Jenny S.